28 year old first BBL with DR Levine Toronto

I am feeling shafted at the moment. Not sure if it was ever worth it. It set me back in my recovery, i was away for 9 days away from my family in the worst pain i have ever had, on the strongest medications available.......... i dont think it was worth it. My results are minimal at this point if even noticeable. I am angry. Very frustrated. The infected abscess was drained (6cc) and i feel better now but the swelling and pain caused local fat cell death that fucked up my results. I dont know what to do. My dr says its less than 1% chance to get an infection but it was so bad. I thought i was going to die....... not worth it. No results, 10,000$ out and sick and away from my family and kids for 9 days and now getting back on suboxone which makes me want to die.....

Infection spreading across my cheek. There now is a big lump there... i am in so much pain and the nurses have been terrible (not all).
NIGHTMARE.
I dont know if i will even come out of this alive, let along worry about results. I just pray it will not become necrotic. Still in hospital and will stay for a while.
I am so disappointed and angry!!!!!!!

so about 6 days ago i noticed my butt getting a bright red spot on my right butt cheek.... it was tender and a bit warm. four days later the spot grew in size and was very hot, super painful, swollen and super hard/firm. i went in to see my surgeon Wednesday dec 7th when i was not able to lay down without pain and standing was excruciating too. the swelling and redness were bad. i had a 38.6 fever all morning and i was vomiting. he told me to go to hospital if it got worse....... so 2 hours after i saw him i spike a 40.2 C fever and felt like i was dying..... the pain was unreal. i was crying....... went to emerg where they kept me on a hard stretcher from wednesday 8 pm until friday 12pm........ what a joke our health care system is....... it was hard to manage my pain because i take opiate blocking agents which made this experience related to a ride in hell.

so i apparently have an abscess and they had to switch me from one antibiotic to the strongest kind because my WBC were rising still with the first (keflex) and the white blood cell count seems to lower with the pepex or whatever strongest available antibiotic they put me on. i am so ANGRY that this crap happened to me...... i knew there was no guarantee for my results but this [RS bleep] is beyond ridiculous. i cry at least five times a day from pain and discomfort.....my ass is bright red swollen like a baboon and hurting. no one knows exactly what is going on. the nurses on this retarded unit are lacking clinical judgement and common sense. i am so done with feeling like crap. wanted to do my procedure before xmas and my bday on 23rd..... i guess i will still pay the price on both......